FRIENDS ARE SUGAR IN LIFE

Hey there! Today imma talk about friends. Basically, MY friends. I consider myself as a very very very very very lucky person. Ever since I stepped into college, my life has changed. I was pretty terrified at first to meet new friends because I have a bad history of my high school life. I probably said this many times to many people that I don't really have a fantastic high school life. Of course there are moments that are still pretty memorable. I have my own bffs in high school, and yea I'm still good with them. But besides that, it's just horrible and I don't wanna go back there. It has been a "trauma" for me. I almost lost my mind going through it, believe me. I cry myself to sleep almost every night and hated going to school, eventually, I hated myself too. mayb it's hate of first sight, mayb it's the way I talk (most probably), or it can be a horrible misunderstanding. however it's over now, because God led me to a better path. :)
To be honest, though this matter seems small but it still haunts me often, I'm still scared of it and I still cry over it sometimes till today. this small lil matter will never get pass my mind. I'm still afraid of hurting people unconsciously, because that could be the best reason for people to hate me. I'm pretty straight-forward, sometimes TOO straight-forward it may offends someone, and it could be me, joking but the others took it seriously and things became worse, it could be alot of reasons. I sense pretty quickly when people dislike me (sometimes being too sensitive), so now I learn how to step out instead of trying my best to keep up. I've learned that, when people dislike you, don't try to get into their life because they DON'T WANT you in their life, so just step back before things get worse. This is no inspiring neither motivating but it's just some fact that I accepted it in my own way.

So that was pretty the dark side of my life, but my title said, FRIENDS ARE SUGAR IN LIFE, its apparently because of my college friends and my high school bffs that still accepts me for who I am. I never knew I would be loved that much. I never knew that so many friends would try to accept me for who I am. I never knew that people will ever laugh at my jokes. lolllll. In college, I always learn to love and care and share. I'm easy influenced, so I think its a good thing my college friends are really loving. God is great. They taught me A LOT. LIKE A LOOOT. I m really blessed and I totally don't know how to describe my feelings anymore. They are the sweetest people of all. what would I do without them, and what probable would I be without them? Every single one of them means something to me. They are special in their own way, and I wouldn't change any bit about them. God just made some beautiful people for me to be friends with.

(I know I look very much difference with my specs on so just quit spotting me. lollll. perasan.)

I had always felt lucky being part of this family. Thank you bringing in the laughter. Thank you for caring. Thank you for sharing. Most of all, thank you for loving me. You people are the sugar in my life. I don't know how to express my feeling towards you all, and don't have the guts to stand right up front of every one of you to tell u how I feel, so I guess blogging helps?? lol. k... -.- This is getting...

AWKWARD.

Because I don't usually tell a lot of this stuffs. I'm usually just a machine gun messing up with people lol. Well, it depends who I'm talking with. haha. It's like when people say, "My level of maturity depends on who I'm with." so true though.

So it has finally became a long post and it's all about me appreciating my friends and talking like a bullshit farewell. 
Always appreciate those are good to you before the dark side attacks you. Goodnight :)